Thursday, December 22, 2005

The strike is over!!!!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Once again I have nothing better to do than steal posts from CB.....

Hot Chocolate or Apple Cider?

Apple Cider, definitely. Though for me, it's more of a fall thing in general, not just Christmas.

Turkey or Ham?
Definitely neither. Not a meat eater.

Do you get a Fake or Real you-cut-it-yourself Christmas tree?

I have one of those cute little fake trees that have the lights already in it. You just unfold and decorate! Insta-tree!

Decorations on the outside of your house?


Snowball fights or sledding?
Snowball fights! Remember the kick-ass one we had with the boys in Apt 8 that year CB??

Do you enjoy going downtown shopping?

I do enjoy shopping during the holidays...the crowds, the songs...its all part of the holiday experience I think. Lately because of shipping issues, I've gone most of mine online and I've actually started to miss the insanity.

Favorite Christmas song?

Anything on the Ella Fitzgerald Christmas Album.....she's amazing.

How do you feel about Christmas movies?

Every year my mom and I watch "A Christmas Story" just for the laughs, but I don't really care about any of the others at all.

When is it too early to start listening to Christmas music?

The day after Thanksgiving is the first day it's ok.

Stockings before or after presents?

Presents on the 24th, Stockings on the 25th.

Carolers, do you or do you not watch and listen to them?


Go to someone else's house or they come to you?

Christmas Eve we stay home, Christmas Day we go to the family.

Do you read the Christmas Story? If so when?

Yes, Chrismtas Eve night.

What do you do after presents and dinner?

On Christmas Eve we do earlyish dinner, then church, then home and do presents into the night, then Christmas Day we get up and do Stockings and then drive to Chicago to see the family.

What is your favorite holiday smell?

Cookies baking in the oven

Ice skating or walking around the mall?

Ice skating!

Do you open a present or presents on Christmas Eve, or wait until Christmas day?

My parents also follow the German tradition of Christmas Eve for presents with stockings on Christmas morning.

Favorite Christmas memory?
The blackout where we had to open our presents by firelight.

Favorite Part about winter?

Kissing during a snowfall...and snowball fights!

Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
No. Any volunteers?
I'm officially earned my NY badge of honor. I've (so far) survived my first ny catastrophe. I always get asked if I was here 9/11 or during the blackout and I was fortunately not, but now the new question will be "Did you survive the transit strike?" and I can proudly say, Yes, I overcame it by walking 2.5 hours each way to work for three days. I think I can probably skip going to the gym this week eh?

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Courtesy of Seasons of the Heart, which was courtesy fat little pug. My additions and thoughts are in bold italics.

[] I'm afraid of the quiet. I'm with CB, I enjoy the quiet.
[] I am really ticklish.

[] I'm afraid of the dark. I like the dark.
[] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[] I am homosexual.
[] I believe in true love This one is hard for me...I believe it exists, I'm just not sure it exists for me.
[] I've ran away from home.
[] I collect comic books.
[X] I shut others out when I'm sad
[] I stayed out all night.
[] I open up to others easily.

[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I watch the news. I'm a CNN junkie..I'm in love with Anderson Cooper
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I love Disney movies.
[] I am a sucker for pretty eyes.
[X] I kill bugs.

[X] I curse all the time. Tsk, yes sadly I'm not a lady
[] I have (had) "x"s in my screen name.
[X] I've slipped and fell in public.
[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. Sadly yes, I've also left Im-esque voicemails
[] I love Spam.
[] I bake well.
[X] I have worn pajamas to class.
[X] I own something from Abercrombie.
[X] I have a job.
[X] Talked on a phone for 5 hours.
[] I love Dr. Phil.
[X] I like someone. I've always got my eyes (or other things) on someone
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[X] I am self-conscious. EXTREMELY
[X] I love to laugh.
[X] I have tried alcohol.
[X] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[X] I have tried a cigarette.

[] I have tried a cigar.
[] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. Do those Vitamin C drops count?
[] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I have a few scars. Emotional and physical
[X] I've been out of this country. Canada
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I love chocolate.
[] I bite my nails.
[X] I am not comfortable with being me. More like i'm not comfortable not knowing who I am

[] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[X] gotten lost in the city.

[] Seen a shooting star.
[X] Had a serious injury
[X] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[X] Have kissed a stranger.
[X] Hugged a stranger
[] Been arrested.
[] Beverage come out of your nose while laughing
[] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] Made out in an elevator. LOL oh the memories....
[X] Swore at your parents.

[] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
[] Been skydiving.
[] Been bungee jumping.
[X] Gotten stitches.
[] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] Bitten someone.
[] Been to Niagara Falls.
[] Gotten the chicken pox twice.
[X] Crashed into a car.

[] Have been to Japan. OMG I wish....
[X] Ridden in a taxi. LOL this morning actually
[] Shoplifted.
[] Been fired.
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. ALL THE TIME
[] Stole something from your job.
[X] Gone on a blind date.
[X] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] Been to Europe. Not yet July 2006!!!!
[X] Slept with a co-worker. ROFL...uh for like 5 years
[X] Been proposed to.
[] Been married.
[] Gotten divorced.
[] Saw someone/something dying.
[X] Driven over 400 miles in one day. 900 NY-IL won't do that again
[X] Been to Canada.
[X] Been on a Plane.
[] Regretful tattoo.
[] More than 5 tattoos.
[X] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] Been in a bloody fist fight.
[] Thrown up in a bar.
[X] Eaten sushi.

[] Been snowboarding.
[] Been skiing.
[X] Been ice skating.

[X] Cried in public.
[] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[X] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[X] Thought of someone almost 24/7
[X] Hated the world.
[] Been in jail.
[] Shot someone.
[] Got shot.
[] Got stabbed.
I fully support the MTA transit strike until tomorrow morning when I have to WALK SEVEN MILES in 20 degree weather to work.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

I have met someone who unknowingly is a constant reminder to me to have faith. A reminder that I definitely need. My soul smiles in his presence and he doesn't even notice. He may never know he makes me happy, he may even end up breaking my heart, but there's something so beautiful in the right now, that I don't even care.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

El ayer por la noche era nuestra celebracion de dias festivos. Recuerdeme no beber otra vez.

Algunos dias pregunto si que estoy buscando a partir de vida esta aqui en NY. Pienso que era demasiado rapido salir de Illinois. Pienso que escapo. Tal vez escapar es lo que necesite. No se. Deseo que tenia algo aqui. Deseo que tenia alguien aqui.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Shall we Dance?

Since I love the original Japanese version of Shall we Dance, I had been hesitant to watch the Jennifer Lopez/Richard Gere remake. I watched it this weekend and of course it doesn't hold a candle to the original version, but there was a quote that has stuck in my mind all day.

Woman: All these promises we make and break....Why is it people get married?
Man: Passion.
Woman: No.
Man: Why then?
Woman: Because we need a witness to our lives. There is a billion people on the planet...I mean what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage you are promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things. All of it, all of the time, every day you're saying "Your life will not go un-noticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed because I will be your witness".

We all want acknowledgement of our existence I guess, appreciation of being who we are. There ARE a billion people on the planet...why is it so hard to find then?

Thursday, December 01, 2005

I re-read the story of Apollo and Daphne tonight, desperately searching for the answers to so many of my questions about life and love. Though the idyllic crossed with the absurd is entertaining to read, I'm not sure I can find the relevance to my own life. Sure, it would be great if we were all pursued so ruthlessly as Daphne was by Apollo, but men don't woo anymore. Romance is dead and co-habitation is a business transaction. I can't remember the last time I simply held hands with someone, found a love note in my backback or had someone suprise me with a bottle of wine after a long day at work. I love doing little things for people, doing the simple gestures that speak the loudest, but I feel like I never get it in return. A wise friend recently reminded me that the gesture of giving and the gesture of loving should be selfless. I need to be better at that, at not wanting reciprocation. We all want to be loved, but that shouldn't be the motivation for loving.

The older I get the more practically I think about life. The idealism I had as a child is gone. Some people fight hard not to let that go, but I seem to have completely relinguish it. I need someone in my life to balance that part of myself out. I need an Apollo to chase my inner child and wipe practicality from my love.

I just hope he doesn't turn me into a tree.