Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Why you shouldn't say EVERY single thing that pops into your head...

The little mini-fridge that the Executives in my company keep their food in is outside my office. Today I was doing a bunch of different things and so I wasn't really paying attention to who was outside my door poking in the fridge. Someone calls out "Hey Kai, where did these apples come from?" Not even thinking, I yell out in response "Trees".

It isn't until I hear him laughing down the hallway that I realize it was the CEO...


Friday, July 27, 2007

Speaking of Unfairness....

Hugs/Thoughts/Prayers and Kleenex to my friend Jane and her family for dealing with the illness and loss of their beloved dog Bismarck.

There are just no words to explain the unfairness of it all.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Where is the Karmic Justice

I've been trying to figure out what's been bugging me lately and I think a part of it is the impending leave of my evil coworker. Here is a person who for YEARS has been self serving, rude and lazy and not only was she NOT fired, she effortlessly found a new job with more pay, less hours and better benefits. Where is the justice in that? Tomorrow is her last day and (in my mind at least) she gets a happy ending. Even if someday her karma comes back and bites her in the ass, I won't know about it. I won't be there to witness it. I'm just supposed to have faith that she'll get what is coming to her and that's a hard pill to swallow.

Dad was right....life just isn't fair.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The Moody Blues

I wish I could describe how I've been feeling lately. Its something akin to how I felt right before I dropped out of college with only 2 classes left in order to graduate. I spent much of the months leading up to that depressed and in bed 20+ hours a day and generally just watching life pass me by. Thankfully I had some close friends/roommates who figured out what was going on and helped me out of it.

This time is different. I'm getting up each day and I'm going to work, but it takes every ounce of energy I have to do so. My patience is gone, I'm short and angry with people even after my morning coffee, and I find myself in a general malaise. I know it will pass, that I won't always feel this way and that all I can do is ride it out. Maybe I'll plan a trip for myself next month. That always gets me excited and it will be fun to explore somewhere new.

Thoughts on Harry Potter to come still! I promise my full review soon!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

I am done.

After breaking only twice (once to catch some sleep for a few hours and once to rest my eyes from reading because I thought they were going to pop out of my head) I have finished the last Harry Potter book.

The tale of getting the book and my thoughts on the story to come after I catch some sleep.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

A crazy wacky icky day

*First the good news: the person I've been having trouble with for the past 2 years at work quit today.

*Except when she gave her notice, my company betrayed me and told her every single thing I had ever said about her (plus a bunch of things I NEVER said, but they claim I did) and she went and told the entire staff that I can't be trusted because I'm a spy for the executives.

**in unrelated news my sister called off her engagement. They are still together, but just no longer engaged

Thank goodness the Harry Potter book comes out tomorrow and I have that to look forward to.

Ugh. What a crazy wacky icky day.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I'm ok, but WHOA that was scary....

A steam pipe exploded about 10 blocks from where I work today. I happened to leave work early today and be on the street right after it happened and it was one of the most terrifying experiences I have ever witnessed. All you could see was smoke and debris shooting into the sky from the street. Hundreds of people were on the street just watching and trying to use their cell phones to find out what had happened. Unfortunately the cell towers were down/circuits were busy so nobody could get through to anyone. The mood was VERY somber and you could tell people were worried about terrorism. I'm glad to finally be home, though I imagine my commute in the morning will be rough.

**Quote from the news: "air in the area may be contaminated. Close your windows and don't breathe it in" also heard on this broadcast: "if you were in the area at the time your clothes may be contaminated as well. take them off, double bag them and take a shower"

gee thanks.

Rain Rain Rain

It's nearly 2 and my clothes are STILL wet from this morning's commute. It was raining so hard it hurt.

Fingers crossed for a dryer evening commute home.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Where I Eat

As usual I am following in Doggy Mama's footsteps! She posted about her family table and I thought I would share mine too.

Growing up we were definitely the "sit down every night together for a meal" family. It was no easy task for my mom who had to try to come up with meals for 4 people with VASTLY different tastes. My dad is a meat and potatoes guy, I'm a vegetarian who loves soy meat products and veggies, my sister is meat and pasta but no vegetables or potatoes girl and my mom eats almost anything except soy meat. Bless her heart for feeding us all at least something we would like at every meal!

Now dinner is just me by myself. I have a lovely dining room table (from Ikea!) but I never use it at all.
I eat most of my meals here on the coffee table in front of the TV:

My mom would be so disappointed too. We NEVER were allowed to eat anywhere but the dining room table. I'm such a rebel. :-P

Monday, July 16, 2007

Sweater Help!

I have been looking for a cardigan sweater set forever and just can't find one that I like. I saw this one at Jcrew that I love, but it's a little pricey (and cashmere, which seems so decadent). My only requirement is that it be long sleeve (none of this 3/4 sleeve business for me), preferably NOT v-neck, and if it has a shell or something I can pair with it that would be great. I've looked for almost a year at all the NY stores and even large department stores and can't ever find anything I like.

Anyone know of any stores that might carry something like this???

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Bullets of Depression

- Neither of the jobs I applied for, including my old job, contacted me for interviews. I'm taking it harder than I thought. I've basically given up my search for now. Job hunting under the best of circumstances is difficult. Add in a major crisis of confidence and it's nearly impossible. I need a break to climb out of my depression before I try again.

- I'm having a major issue with a coworker that is making getting through the 10 hours a day I have to sit next to her extremely draining. I can't go into detail, but on Thursday she made two people cry because of her attitude. 6 people have complained to HR about her, but nothing ever happens. It's taking its toll on all of us and there is no hope of help.

- I'm not sure I can make it through the next 6 weeks of summer. I'm already grumpy about the heat and it hasn't even been that bad yet. Lets hope global warming takes a year off.

Sorry for the bummer of a post....hopefully things are better for you guys!

Thursday, July 12, 2007

MORE Excitement

After nearly 7 years of trying to cancel AOL and not being able to for various reasons, namely them wearing me down EVERY time I called to try, I have broken free and gotten rid of my account! Hurrah for the extra $25 I will now have each month!!!


I'm going to see the Harry Potter movie tonight after work!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 09, 2007


When I was little I always wished I was part of a big family. I am not close to my sister at all and I always wished I had other siblings around that were closer in age or even personality to me. My dad was an only child, but his mother (my grandmother) had a large family and even had siblings close to the same age as my dad, so his side of the family is extensive and most of them are still in the New York area.

The great thing about my family's house in the Poconos is that when you go there you never know who else is going to be there. When I got up there on Friday afternoon there were 9 people in the house for the weekend. Big family dinners around the kitchen table and late night card games are the norm there. It was a great 2 days talking with family I hadn't seen in ages and getting to play with my 2 year old second cousin (once removed....I think. I can't remember how all that works. We just call everyone "cousin")I had never met. At first I was uncomfortable being the unmarried person there, but once the annoying questions about my personal life got out of the way, it was fine. I don't have the sense of "family" and connection that they all have with eachother, but I still had a good time talking, playing cards and being out of the city. The house is surrounded by woods and it's not uncommon to see deer or the occasional bear in the yard, which is obviously quite a change from my normal scenery. Here's one that wandered into the yard on Saturday.

I hope I can keep in better touch with the family I saw this weekend. My cousins with the 2 year old live 10 minutes away from me in NYC. In one of our conversations I discovered that another one of my cousin works 3 blocks away from me and often frequents the same bars I do. Here is my adorable little second cousin running in the yard:

I truly hope I can keep in contact with them and maybe feel more connected to my dad's side of the family. Maybe my time in New York isn't coming to an end after all.

Friday, July 06, 2007

Kai Unplugged

I'm heading to the Poconos this afternoon for a no internet, no cell phone access "unplugged" weekend. I'm taking my camera and I promise photos upon my return.

Have a great weekend, be it, plugged or unplugged!

Thursday, July 05, 2007

He Wrote, He Saw, He Left

Since I'm not a very social person, I often turn to on-line dating to meet people. I've done craigslist, match.com, eharmony.com, various forums, and always get the exact same result. I meet a guy, we correspond for awhile, we exchange photos and he disappears, never to be heard from again.

I get that men are visual creatures, but I can't help but be disappointed every time it happens. Is there not a single available NYC man willing to give an intelligent, well-read, slightly overweight woman a chance?? Clearly there is not.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

And the Winners are....

Tracey and Doggy Mama! The lie was #4. Despite my neat freak/obsessive cleanliness tendencies I absolutely NEVER make my bed.

Which means: yes, I truly do have a hatred for buses and Disney World, I have indeed made out with a bartender at club Verlaine in NYC, I couldn't make it through a softball season without a major injury, but walked away unscathed from a nasty car accident, I've been to Canada, Aruba and England, I was a lighting designer in a past life, I own WAY too many books, and resumes and interviews are completely foreign concepts to me.

This was fun!!

And a big THANKS to Doggy Mama for deeming me a Rockin' Girl Blogger! You definitely rock too!!!

Happy 4th to all!!!

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Truth and Lies

Here's the deal. I post 10 things about myself, 1 of which is false and you have to guess which one it is. Leave your guesses in the comments!!

1) I've been to 3 other countries.
2) I own over 500 books. An entire wall of my apartment is bookshelves.
3) I once made out with the bartender in the bathroom of a NYC club.
4) I make my bed every day. I can't leave the house until it's perfectly made.
5) I have never gotten a job by interviewing/having a resume.
6) I hate buses and refuse to ride them.
7) I was in a car accident in high school, wasn't wearing my seatbelt and hit the windshield. I amazingly walked away from it completely unhurt.
8) I was a theatre lighting designer for 5 years.
9) I played softball in high school until I ripped my rotator cuff and had to have surgery. It never healed properly and still dislocates easily.
10) I dislike theme parks, I went to Disney and hated it the entire time.