Friday, January 29, 2010

Weigh-in #3 - 156.8 (-1.4)

Down again this week for a total loss this month of 4.2 pounds!

I was surprised this week at the loss. I made baked mac & cheese last weekend and thought for sure that would throw me off. In addition to my Wii workouts, I've also been playing a LOT of Wii tennis so I think that compensated for my culinary naughtiness.

So happy to see the scale continually going the right way!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

You Can't Have It All

As far as 2010 goals go, I feel 100% on track with being more active and healthier. The therapy/meds are working and I'm finally at a manageable place with anxiety. I'm in a relationship and overall having a much happier years.

Except that my January spending has been OUT.OF.CONTROL. In the past month I bought:

A wii - $199.00
Wii Active - $59.99
Wii Fit - $99.99
2 other Wii games $60
a new purse $178.00
5 shirts at Victorias Secret $140.00
4 new pairs of shoes $200.00
New PJs $90.00
2 movies $35.00

Um WHAT WAS I THINKING???I spent over a THOUSAND DOLLARS in 28 days! Granted half of that was on the Wii, which I have used every single day for working out, but the other "stuff" was just spontaneous purchases out of boredom at work or just to feel "good" about myself.

I feel so good I've made some great changes to my life recently, but then feel SO BAD about the spending. I am renewing my goal as of February 1 and have been working on creating a reasonable budget for myself. I feel like I have SO many aspects of my life together now..why is this last one such a sticking point for me???

Sunday, January 24, 2010 Revenge

Some time ago I dated Tennis Guy, who was affiliated with a major international tennis player. Recently, I bought the Grand Slam Tennis game for my Wii and he happens to be one of the characters in the game.

I have to say every time I win a point against that particular player in the game, I giggle just a little and feel an odd sense of revenge.

It's kind of empowering.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Weigh-in #2 - 158.2 (-.8)

I love seeing those scale numbers go down! I haven't (yet) made any changes to my diet or eating habits, this is ALL due to my commitment to my Wii. I do about 20 minutes a day (with a longer 40-50 min session on the weekends) and change it up often with doing my Wii active and other sports games.
I think this is the longest I've kept up with an "active" plan and I definitely look forward to going home and Wii-ing. I was never a gym person and just never found an at-home DVD that kept my interest for long enough. I am so happy to have found my exercise "niche" finally.  
I just hooked my Wii to the internet so I can play against my friends who also have Wii's so if you have a Wii and want to connect, let me know!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Hey Laaaaadies

I broke my beloved flat iron and need to replace it, but the choices out there are daunting.

Anyone out there have one they love and can recommend?

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

For Better...or maybe Worse?

So I finally broke down last night and called the Boy....and he had been home for HOURS! He came down with a nasty cold while he was away, so he wasn't feeling great, but I still feel like he could have texted me that he got home safe! Our conversation was fine....normal, friendly, flirty, but I'm torn between wondering if I should be getting the hint that he's "just not that into me" or wonder if after 2 months of dating we've entered a more comfortable phase where it's understood that we care about eachother and that he's coming home to me so the constant contact isn't as vital......

I HATE this feeling and wonder what happened to my nice, easy relationship.

He did say he fell on his head while skiing....

Monday, January 18, 2010

Apparently 11 months of therapy isn't quite enough

My Boy went away on a trip and I haven't heard from him in 3 days.

Leading up to this trip, things were amazing. We SO were that annoying couple you see in restaurants feeding eachother, holding hands and ignoring the world around them. He even apologized for not being able to take me on the trip with him (it was a ski trip he'd had planned with a bunch of friends for months). We texted the day he left, I wished him a safe trip and off he went.


A NORMAL girl would have hung out with friends, caught up on email, maybe did some shopping and NOT OBSESSED that she had been dumped. I, sadly have convinced myself he is breaking up with me and have moped around my house now for 2 days. I wish I could stop this crazy thinking and be rational. My therapist is always encouraging me to think in facts not fantasy.


- I am an excellent catch and it would be his loss if he chooses to end things.

- While 3 days with no contact is unusual, it does NOT necessarily mean he is done with me. Yes, 98% of men break up with women by simply choosing to ignore them, but that does not mean he is doing this and his personality/behavior in the past has indicated that he is not the kind of person that would do that.

If I was a normal, healthy person I would realize that he's out enjoying himself and has every intention of seeing me when he gets back, just as he said. But instead I worry, obsess and grieve for a loss that hasn't even happened.

I'm definitely going to get my money's worth out of therapy this week. Sigh.

Friday, January 15, 2010

My first weigh-in - 159.0

I've been doing my Wii Active now for 2 weeks. I still enjoy the workouts and think it is definitely something I will continue. I am down 3 pounds, but not back to my pre-holiday weight quite yet. My goal is to get down to the 135-140 range.

Go Wii!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Big Girl Decisions

As my long term readers know (do I even HAVE any long term readers??) I am 100% doctor phobic. I do not go to the doctor. EVER. 9 months ago, I started seeing a therapist for my anxiety issues and now that some of those have reached a manageable stage, I am trying to branch out. (Men - this is where I warn you this is going to take a girl turn and to click away. No really. CLICK AWAY)

Now that I am in a (hopefully) long-term relationship, I know the importance of a girly-bit check up and some pills that prevent any surprise babies. So I have taken a MAJOR plunge and made a gyno appt. It's not until February, so I have a month to chicken out, but I'm hoping I can stick to my guns and make this major step towards conquering a major fear. I can't believe I have gotten to this point, and also can't believe it's taken 9 months of therapy and drugs to get here, but here I am.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Could it be?

I'm still slightly afraid to hope, but things with the Boy are going amazingly well. The thing that surprises me most is how EASY it is! I don't question his feelings, there is no drama, it's just....nice and fun!

Fingers crossed, but I have a feeling this one may be around for awhile!

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Day 5

2010, so far so good. I've been eating healthy and getting my butt absolutely KICKED by Wii active every day. Also I got Just Dance for the Wii and boy does that get your heart rate up!

My month-long vaca from work will be over on Monday, so this week I'll be cooking, heading to Jersey to visit a friend and her baby and having a date with my Boy! Then it's back to the grind!

Saturday, January 02, 2010


I bought a Wii. I have really enjoyed playing the one my parents have so I decided to use my Christmas cash and get myself one. I am hoping it motivates me to move my butt a little more in 2010. The store didn't have the wii active set, so I still have to get that, but day 1 of playing Tennis and Boxing for an hour seemed to get my heart rate up a bit, so I have high hopes!

Any other Wii lovers out there??