Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Things with Boy have been very good! He calls or texts every day I'm away and is definitely still interested in hanging out when I return! I have a good feeling about this one!
I'm thinking of buying myself a wii with my holiday money. I've been using my parents and I think it may be a workout plan I can stick to. I've heard good things about Wii active....any wii active players out there who have had success?
My computer died right before xmas and I got a new laptop with a nice big screen. Unfortunately I can NOT find a case that it fits in! I'm heading out today to try again, but I may have to just order it online.
I think those are the highlights....hope everyone had a great holiday!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I'm trying to be thankful for the fun we've had and not want more, but all I can think about is how miserable the next few weeks will be while I am away...waiting for the moment of truth...will we hang out again or will I never hear a word from him again?
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
And did I mention he is HOT and happens to like me too?
We've been on dates 1 (drinks) and 2 (skating at Rockefeller Plaza....which was incredibly romantic) and #3 is planned for this Saturday (I'm cooking him dinner), but I find myself afraid to hope he'll be the one to make it past date #4. I want SO badly for him to break through my pattern lately of not making it past date #3. I'm afraid to hope, but I want to.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Thank you dating gods for getting me out of this one before it even started!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
How am I supposed to feel lovable when nobody has ever wanted to love me?
Sunday, November 01, 2009
There are so many things I want to remember about this trip. The beauty of the city. The cafe where I ordered a capuccino and a croissant de chocolate every morning, not only because it was good, but because it was the easiest to pronounce. The sex toy shop next to my hotel. Attempting to find the Spanish arc de triumph, but getting lost. Reading Angel’s Game (a book set in Barcelona) while sitting on the hotel roof deck overlooking the city. My mani/pedi at the Hotel Arts. The weird cheese ravioli topped with almonds I had. Being surrounded by a foreign language. Enjoying good Spanish wine.
I had an amazing experience and absolutely can not wait to go back.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
I lost 10 pounds, I went on a fabulous vacation and I still can't get the guy. Sigh.
**Parents seem to be on the mend from their H1N1...we are just keeping an eye on my Dad, as his asthma complicates the illness a bit. Thanks for all your good vibes!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
My very minor complaint is that he's an over-texter. I think he has a job where he pretty much sits in front of a computer all day and I get that, so do I, but he texts me. All. Day. Long. Even if I don't respond, he still texts. Part of it is that I'm not used to attention AT ALL, so any positive male vibes to me seem strange. The messages are nice, just checking up on me (in a nice way, not in a stalker or possessive way or anything like that) but I feel like why not pick up the phone and have a 10 minute conversation with someone instead of just TYPING. My sister is an over-texter too so maybe it's just one of those newtechnology age things coupled with the fact that I've never really had a bf before so I am not properly schooled in the partnership/having someone care concepts of it all.
Also, he gets a free pass. He brought me REALLY good chocolate on our first date.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
- Therapy is still ongoing, but the more I go the more she pisses me off (and not in a good way). If I hear her say one more time "Well just go with that and stay with yourself" (which are the ONLY advice she has EVER given me) I just may go postal. Perhaps then I'd get more sage advice, but I suspect not.
- I chipped two bones in my arm doing something stupid. I used my left hand as a hammer to bang some pegs into some new furniture I was assembling and ended up breaking it! Not my finest moment.
- My Barcelona trip is coming up!!!!! I am beyond excited, but feel like I haven't prepared for it at all. I wanted to brush up on my Spanish and do some research on things to see, but I may just end up winging it. I kind of like the "wander a foreign country and see where it takes me" approach to travel.
- I've had an icky cold for the past few days, but thankfully drinking massive amounts of water and loading up on vitamin C prevented it from being TOO bad. I also spent a TON of time filling the sink with hot water and breathing in the steam which helped immensely. I must remember to buy a humidifier this winter. Vicks makes a germ free one that I've been meaning to get.
- Still doing eharmony....it's had it's ups and downs. Had one date with guy #1 that went AMAZINGLY. Probably one of the nicest/most romantic dates I've ever had.....and then never heard from the guy again. Met up with guy #2 a couple of times....but there doesn't seem to be any chemistry, despite the fact that he is SUPER smart and I like him intellectually a lot. We still email daily, so I think we'll end up being friends. Had a date with bachelor #3 last night that went super well. We got drinks, then dinner, then walked through the park a bit and chatted. He is super cute and didn't bat an eye at my broken arm/smokers voice from remnants of my cold. Unfortunately he lives 2 hours away though and I get the impression he is kind of out of my league (though that's probably just my low self esteem talking). He did text me the entire 2 hours it took him to get home though....so we shall see. I definitely like him, but I know better than to get my hopes up after just one date!
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Then entered my mother.
She is INSISTING I be involved in every single tiny aspect of this wedding. Every conversation is about location or decorations or dresses and I just keep saying. Just tell me the date and where and I'll be there, I DO NOT CARE. I'm 30 years old and my sister is 8 years my junior. This isn't exactly a self esteem boosting event for me, but I'm doing the best I can. My sister doesn't bug me about any of this. I haven't even spoken to her in weeks. She leaves me alone, why can't my mother???!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Sleep 8pm-10:30pm, get up, eat dinner, do work/cleaning/email etc. then go back to bed between 2-3am and sleep until 7:30am-ish.
I've battled ALL kinds of insomnia....even putting up with the 6 months or so I slept only every OTHER night, but this is ridiculous!
Monday, September 07, 2009
Sadly, I was derailed by ONE box of soft pretzels. I ate the entire box (6 pretzels) in one day (yesterday) and it resulted in a gain for the week. I'm trying not to get myself down about it, but it's a hard lesson to grasp. I gain weight SO easily and am realizing that I can not slip up even a little if I want to lose weight. I think it's the expectation of perfection that ends up derailing me. My hope is that I find the balance sooner rather than later and the scale starts moving in the RIGHT direction.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Starting weight: 158.2
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
I did, however, re-join Eharmony today....so perhaps that will make for good blog fodder. See what I do for you people. :-P
Friday, July 31, 2009
Breakfasts: Antique Mommy's Cobbler and Monkey bread or what I call Monkey Bread, but the recipe calls it holiday bread and cold brewed coffee that is my new obsession
Lunches and Dinners: Italian Pasta Salad with veggies, Baked Pasta with Chicken Sausage and home made pizza hot pockets that are currently taking over my freezer.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Tuesday: Lunch: Leftover CPK from a work lunch yesterday, dinner: lime chicken and mustard potatoes (both new recipes I'm trying out, I'll post the recipes if they turn out well!) EDIT: I tried them both and YUM! You must must must try the lime chicken....it was GREAT. Though I wouldn't make the mustard potatoes along side this particular chicken recipe again, I would absolutely make them again in the fall as a side to turkey meatloaf or something. Both are going into my recipe file,
Wednesday: lunch: leftover lime chicken, dinner: quesadillas
Thursday: lunch: chicken parm lean cuisine, dinner: turkey burger with leftover potatoes (if there are any!)
Friday: lunch: homemade pizza hot pocket, dinner: quesadillas
Monday, July 27, 2009
Now that the day to day anxiety is at a manageable level, we are starting in on some other issues I have, but I've sort of hit a wall because I have problems discussing certain things with her. She is a 50 something woman.....how am I supposed to discuss dating/sex etc. with her! I made a Cosmo reference the other day and she just looked at me blankly. I would REALLY love to resolve some of my issues with men, but I'm not sure I can talk to her about these things.
It's like talking to my Aunt or something....how do I get over this and open up?!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Lately I've needed to tame my eyebrows and I have an easy week at work since all the execs are out of the office, so I decided on a whim to try a Spa around the corner for work to get a quick eye brow wax at lunch.
I LOVED it. 30 minutes of being totally transported into a serene environment in the middle of a work day was SO worth having someone pour hot wax on my face and them rip it off.
If that's not a ringing endorsement, I don't know what is.
Friday, July 17, 2009
In other news:
I have another mouse (who I have now named Beatrice) . We've been cohabitating for a few weeks now (meaning I stay out of all areas I see her in) until she woke me at 4:30am a few nights ago by scratching on something near the floor by my BED. I turned the light on and managed to scare her into walking into one of those glue traps. I put a box over her and called my friend to help me extricate her. Unfortunately in the extrication process she managed to get loose again, so I'm back at square 1. Sigh. I need her OUT and I fear now there is no way I'll ever catch her. Right now I have her (I think) shut in my bedroom, so I'm camping on my couch. I MISS MY BED!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
He commented he would walk me to the train, which I thought meant he was going to leave me at the station, but by the time I realized he had meant he was walking me HOME, I panicked and got too embarrassed/felt too guilty he was going out of his way to say no. I was so completely oblivious to his intentions. I should have known better and been able to say no, but I wasn't. I let him come home with me and ended up hooking up with him.
This is an ALL TOO COMMON pattern with me. I've done this countless times in the past. I'm afraid of turning a guy off or making him mad he came all the way only to deny him that I go against my better judgement and just give in to what THEY want. I ignore what I want and what feels right for me out of fear of rejecting the all to rare positive male attention I receive.
I know I should talk about this with my therapist, but I'm still in the "too embarrassed to admit I'm promiscuous/making bad choices etc." phase of therapy.
Ugh. I hate that feeling of going against myself. I even asked him if he wants to hang out tomorrow and he said he would. Stupid Stupid Stupid.
I'm 30. When will I ever learn?
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
On Sunday I had a photoshoot. I've been wanting publicity photos for my retouching business so I had my very talented photographer friend, Caryn take some. We went to this abandoned windmill factory and had a blast. I'll post some of the outtakes once I touch them up a bit.
Have my second date with Traveler Guy on Friday. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
It's good to exercise the flirt muscles...god knows I need the practice.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
I know the feeling is fleeting and that a few weeks from now I'll be eating dry cereal straight from the box for dinner because my meal plan went by the wayside and I'll be rooting through the laundry for the least offensive smelling pair of jeans, but I think I'm actually learning that it's ok to get behind on life sometimes. Nobody has it "together" 100% of the time, especially if they are trying to do it all alone. It's about balance. Some days I'm going to be on my meal plan and ok with sticking to it. Other times I'm going to give in to the pizza craving, even if it's not on that week's list, and that's ok.
It's called living life.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I put it in my Goodwill pile with a heavy hand and tried to forget about my perfect skirt, but when I finally made my trip last week to the donation bin, I couldn't bear to part with it and decided to see if I could have my perfect cheap skirt altered.
I was TERRIBLY embarrassed to take it to my fancy NYC tailor for fear of the mocking I would pay so much to get such a cheap piece of clothing taken in, but perfect black skirts are hard to find so I bit the bullet and took it in.
He listened careful to what I wanted done and inspected the label. He said in his heavy Eastern European accent "umm...this is like $18". I apologized for bringing in such cheap piece and started in on a lengthy explanation of how it was the perfect skirt and how I'd searched for years to find a replacement and couldn't and he patiently listened while glancing at the cashier with a "what is this chick talking about" look. When I finally finished he says to me "No, miss I mean the ALTERATIONS will be $18."
I thanked him, took my receipt and got out of there as fast as I could.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Hope you guys are having more blogable summers! I need to live vicariously through you for awhile!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Before (I piled my work stuff on a TV table and did my work on a couch until my back hurt)
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
The first person I got told me they don't give out information, just phone numbers.
The second time I called the person directed me to the online forms for applying to be a security GUARD.
The third time I got someone who actually knew what I was talking about.
Ladies and Gentelmen: The United States Government
Monday, June 08, 2009
I'm having slight buyers remorse....I spent a LOT of money on this project, but as I hope to eventually move to a 100% freelance photo career someday I have to think of it as an investment in my future.
Guess it's time to start promoting my business now. I need this desk to pay for itself!
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Take pictures. Take pictures of good times, bad times, times when you think you look fat, times when you think you look good. Times when you cried and times when you laughed so hard you cried. Just take pictures.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I am looking forward to healthy summer eating....I can't wait for the first good strawberries to appear in the grocery store. YUM!
What are your favorite summer foods?
Sunday, May 24, 2009
1) I am addicted to my Blackberry WAY more than I would care to admit. Despite not having it with me, I found myself waking up in the middle of the night looking at the nightstand to see if the new message indicator light was blinking.
2) I am 100% comfortable spending a week completely alone with minimal human contact.
3) My love for Tivo is much stronger than I thought. They should make a travel Tivo that you can take with you.....THAT would be fabulous.
4) The ocean has healing powers so much better than any drug.
Now I'm off to unpack....my suitcase currently smells like beach and I need to do laundry and re-pack. I'm off to Chicago on Friday.
Friday, May 22, 2009
I've been a lazy bum this entire trip. Pool/beach/eat repeat. I've barely taken any photos or done a thing other than read near various bodies of water.
It's been FABULOUS. I've got a few more hours of sun tomorrow morning and then I'm on my way home. With no computer or ipod to entertain me, it's gonna be a LOOOONG flight.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
You know, I really can't complain about this whole turning 30 thing.
Monday, May 11, 2009
I can't tell if I'm being impatient and was wishing for a magic cure, but my expectations were after 2 months I would at least feel closer to feeling different, yet I don't. I like my therapist and she has definitely said things to me that have made me think about things differently, but I don't feel like we ever get to solutions. I'm tired of just thinking about things. Thinking I can do on my own time and without a copay. I want SOLUTIONS or tools.
Is 2 months long enough to tell if something is working or not?
Friday, May 08, 2009
If you need me, I'll be laying in my comfy bed trying to make it through Book 2 of the Twilight series. I won't spoil it for anyone who hasn't read it, but so far Book 2 has turned me into an emotional wreck.
Not a bad way to spend my last weekend of my 20s.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
*the cataloupe reference is from last week's Grey's Anatomy episode: "Life handed her lemons and she made cantaloupes!"
Friday, May 01, 2009
Big Target trip planned for tonight. Living in NYC a Target trip involved car rental and major planning so it's a real treat when I get to go. Thanks to Zip Cars, I can treat myself a little more often than I used to. I also need to meal plan for the week. Somehow my freezer is STUFFED, yet I feel like I don't have many meal option. I"m sure the pasta sauce taking up 1/2 my freezer has something to do with that. LOL Note to self: next time HALVE the recipe.
Even though it's going to make for a LOT of traveling in May, I decided to go to my friend's memorial service being held in my college town. 5 days after I return from St. Martaan, I'll be heading to Illinois, but it's important to me that I go back and honor her life and her service to the University she worked at.
Monday, April 27, 2009
I was able to tear myself away from my kitchen on both Saturday and Sunday to enjoy the sun. On Sunday I ventured out on a walk around my neighborhood and found a park to sit in. Since I was just wandering I hadn't thought to bring anything with me so I think I may have worried a few parents who thought I was out to nab their child. Next time I'll bring some reading material and hope that makes me look less suspicious.
I can't believe it's almost May! Where on earth does the time go??
Friday, April 24, 2009
I'm also going to try to get outside and enjoy this weather we are supposed to get. 87 by Sunday! WHOOO!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
In other news the coffee machine at work is broken, but apparently only for me. Other people can use it fine, but when I try, it breaks.
I don't know how my coffee karma got messed up. I've never been anything but good to it!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Continuing my doctor tour, I have an eye appointment on Saturday. They won't let me renew my drivers license unless I have an exam and the doctor signs off of it. This must be some special NY rule. I don't remember ever having to do this in IL. I like shopping for new frames though, so that will be fun. I love having a bunch of different pairs to switch between. I also desperately need new prescription sunglasses. The ones I have been using are over 15 years old!
After this I need a medical break. Getting healthy is expensive!
Monday, April 13, 2009
- Dentist appointment (again) tomorrow. With my anxiety I have avoided it for a LONG time, but am trying to face my fears as I look towards 30, so I found a dentist that specializes in dental phobics and had a consultation. Things don't look too bad for as long as I avoided it, but I have to go back tomorrow for some work. NOT looking forward to that.
- Had a uber productive weekend updating my retouching website, working on some new portfolio pieces and studying up on some new photoshop techniques. I've been getting freelance jobs here and there, and am hoping to slowly but surely grow my business.
I think that's it for me. How was everyone's Easter?
Monday, April 06, 2009
On the one hand I should feel proud that I've done something I have put off for YEARS and am facing a fear, but on the hand hand is PURE TERROR and anxiety.
Ugh. Hold my hand.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
On the menu for this week:
Pasta with home made sauce (a repeat from last week, but I'm trying to rid my freezer of all this sauce I have stored up!)
Soy links & cous cous (never made it last week)
Apple & Cheddar Turkey Meatballs and Cream Cheese & Sour Cream smashed potatoes (so not healthy, but looked too good to pass up)
Blueberry pancakes (I've got a ton of frozen blueberries I'm trying to use up)
and as a special treat, Raspberry scones (also have a ton of raspberries I'm trying to use)...not to mention I am ADDICTED to the ones at Starbucks and am hoping to re-create them at home.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I'm trying out a few new styles for me so I ordered this:
and I'm trying out this:
Spring here I come!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Also, I am FINALLY starting to meal plan again! My freezer is stuffed with the spinach &artichoke lasagna I made recently, so the theme of this week's meal planning is "freezer clean out".
Sunday night/Monday lunch: Lemon & Honey Chicken with Rice
Monday night/Tues lunch:Fried rice with leftover rice & misc. freezer veggies
Tuesday night: Mini bagels I found in the back of the freezer that I'm turning into pizza bagels
Wednesday lunch: Order in
Wednesday night: Parmesean Cous Cous w/ soy link sausages
Thursday lunch: leftover Parmesean Cous Cous
Thurs night: Frozen lasagna after Dr. appt.
Friday lunch: lean cuisine I have stashed in freezer at work.
Friday night: Turkey Burger
The best part is this is all stuff I already have, so my grocery bill for the week is $0.00!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Not only have the side effects of my new meds kicked in taking the form of MAJOR NAUSEA, I have also come down with a cold. Ugh.
If you need me this weekend, I'll be in bed under the covers battling sickness and continuing my 80s movie marathon. I've already knocked off Say Anything, next up is Moonstruck and Top Gun.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
- Also nobody told me I can't drink at all or take ANY other meds with this and of course I had drinking plans AND feel like I'm coming down with a cold. If the pharmacy I go to wasn't so absolutely horrendous I would ask them if there was any cold remedy alternatives, but last time I was there they yelled at me for filling out my forms too slow and threw a pen at me, so I don't think I'll be asking them for assistance.
- My work situation is going to GREATLY CHANGE over the next few months to a year and it's freaking me out. They are looking to fire one of the assistants and the other one just got pregnant so it looks like I'll have to go back to doing 100% asst work with zero help. I was JUST getting away from all that and turning towards doing more photo retouching for work and was finally feeling like my work situation was in a good place and now it's sliding back. I'm majorly bummed out.
- My sis got a good job post her graduation in May which is GREAT and my parents are helping her buy a house, and also giving her money for her wedding next year and I'm feeling major sibling rivalry. I'm glad that she found something she loves in this economy and is getting a really good start on post-college life, but I can't help but feel jealous. Just because I never got married I am less worthy of having my financial life be a little easier??! I fully acknowledge it's a spoiled notion, but the feelings are there nonetheless.
I think I may need to try to schedule a day off soon. I could use a "spring break" of sorts.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
It seems stupid because the whole point of therapy is to change the aspects of your life that you are unhappy with. She explained that I have a hyper awareness and are overly in tuned to details and people (like House!) which causes my brain to get overwhelmed around other people because my brain is in overdrive trying to process everything, therefore causing the anxiety. It makes sense to me, but my awareness of people and the world is such a huge part of my personality and self that I worry about losing it. I worry that I can't be myself and not have anxiety.
Probably not exactly what Shakespeare had in mind.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
It sounds easy enough, but it was harder than I thought to get some of the hard truths out in words, but I did it.
The appointment was mostly me telling her the things I would like to work on, her saying "give me an example" and me telling anecdotes, but I get a good vibe from her so I think I'll stick it out for awhile. I have to go back on Monday so we'll see what happens with #2. For now, I'm just proud I made is through #1.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I know I should do this and I have to fight the "flight" desires, but it's going to be very hard to get on that train after work and make this appointment. All good thoughts you could send my way at 8pm tomorrow night would be greatly appreciated.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Last night I was exhausted so I dropped into bed around 9:30. I slept until 11 and then was up the rest of the night!
5.5 hours of sleep in 2 days is NOT enough.
Here's hoping I can find some sleep after watching my boy Danny Gokey on American Idol. I have a HUGE crush on him and hope he's around till the end.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
- Went through my home office files last night to purge what I needed. OMG was I hanging onto paper that from a DECADE ago. Now of course, comes the process of shredding it all. Ugh.
- I joined Zip Cars today. It's this car sharing program that's like renting a car, but you can do it by the hour. The garage is less than a block from my apartment so now I can have a car to use practically whenever I want! I'm very excited about being able to run errands/go to the beach this summer, etc. I think I am going to love it.
- Going to attempt to start cooking again this weekend. I'm going to try making lasagna in my crockpot. Hopefully this will get me started back on track with my meal planning. I'm excited about it again now that I know I can get to a REAL grocery store (not the NYC neighborhood mini-stores) more often with the zip car. I may even be able to shop at my beloved Trader Joes more. I LOVE that store.
- I just realized that my drivers license expires on my birthday this year. I can renew online, but I have to get an eye exam and proof to submit. Happy flipping birthday (in May) to me. What to remind me that I'm OLD now NY DMV. Ugh.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Though I am sure we don't know the whole story, unfortunately thousands of young girls who do follow the singers and the celebrity gossip just received the message that it's ok to have a relationship with someone who hits you.
We don't teach our girls to value themselves above others. I know that I myself struggle with this daily. I've stayed longer than I should, put up with more than I should, not stood up and said enough when I should.
I know the problem is bigger than celebrity news, and why we idolize (and idealize) it, but that doesn't change the fact that young girls and women in the 21st century have seen yet another example that it's ok to allow someone else to devalue you.
When will we learn to stop accepting the unacceptable?
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sigh. At least I tried I guess.
UPDATE: After 13 phone calls to doctors listed on my insurance company's "find a dr" website, I got a dr to call me back, after TWO phone calls with her, two attempts to navigate my insurance company's automated phone system and another call to the dr with the requested insurance info, I FINALLY have an appointment.
Hey, at least it's something.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Being a anxious phobic is really getting old.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Boy am I glad I did! It turns out that the Container Store has a 20% off coupon for everyone who saw that episode, available for download on their website. It's only good until March 1, so get it NOW!
I heart the container store and now I can heart it for 20% off!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
On Saturday morning I saw a mouse in the kitchen. I make no apologies for it, I am a TOTAL complete GIRL when it comes to bugs and mice. I literally spent the entire weekend sitting in the middle of my bed with my shoes on, in a state of panic. An exterminator came and closed up some holes and left some traps (and I think one got caught) and he said he was sure I only had one and that he hadn't been there long, so it's likely over, but I still can't stop the freaking out. I haven't set foot in my kitchen since Friday and I'm starving. The exterminator said he would come back in 2 weeks to do a check, but I'm not sure I can make it that long. Thankfully I leave on Thursday for San Francisco for a few days, but of course I'm going to spend the entire time worrying that there will be a mouse party in my absence.
Sigh. I hate anxiety/fear.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Monday, February 09, 2009
Sunday, February 08, 2009
Also, I ate an entire box of Entenmann's chocolate donuts in 2 days*.
Something is definitely up with me.....I just don't know what it is.
*no I'm not PG....I haven't been in the company of a man since it was warm enough to wear skirts and flip flops.
Sigh. Spring can't come soon enough.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
By the time her MS symptoms were starting to worsen, I had moved across the country and could be little help aside from correspondence and prayers. I would send her photos of my travels and we would trade stories about our dogs. Oh the countless times I threw the ball for her dog on those nights I stopped by her house. One of the many things I will remember most is the love she had for her dogs.
I can't imagine what it is like to be at the end of your path, especially with no children or partner to be by your side. Several former co-workers have taken turns sitting by her bedside, making sure that someone is with her until the end. I selfishly wonder if my own solitude of now will also be my solitude in death. The thought keeps me up at night.
I hope that peace comes soon for you Shelley. Your kindness and strength have shown through to the end, but that is just a fraction of the legacy you will leave behind.
I wish I had stopped by on my way home more often.
Monday, February 02, 2009
I think the mother made a poor choice. I certainly understand the desire to have a child, but I think there has to be a point where the practicality of finances and familial strain have to win out. Though I definitely question the doctors who thought this woman was a good candidate for IVF (and I'm DYING to know who paid for it....it is NOT cheap!), I so SO hate that IVF is getting a bad reputation in all this. I have a married colleague in her mid 40s who (responsibly) used it and had twin girls, but was completely in a stable emotional and financial place before she and her husband made that choice. I feel bad that these 14 children have to grow up in a difficult situation.
If she gives an interview, I'm torn about watching. Even though I think it's WRONG for her to benefit off her poor choice, ultimately I hope the money would be used for her childrens' benefit. Ultimately with all the unanswered questions (seriously WHO PAID FOR THIS??) I think curiousity will get the best of me and I'll tune in. If she gets her own TV series, I doubt I would watch (though I must admit I DO love Jon and Kate plus 8). I wonder if this story will impact their series at all??
With superbowl excitement I forgot about this week's meal plan! It's time to clean out the freezer, so this week will be a little of everything, mini turkey meatloafs, mac & cheese, baked ziti....and who knows what else is buried in there. If I find anything good I'll let you know!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Homemade Pizza - Friday nights are pizza nights in my house!
Turkey Meatloaf (in a muffin tin) will FINALLY be made this weekend and frozen
Honey Mustard Chicken
Soy Meat Tacos
May also make the artichokes from last week too. I really want to try that recipe out!
I'm hoping to also make oatmeal bars for snacking too...usually I make them with fruit, but I might try them with chocolate and maybe peanut butter for a change....I'll keep you posted!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
A friend mentioned that you can pay missed tolls online! I put my info in, paid my $ and got a confirmation #. No handcuffs!
I wonder how many people actually do this! Have you ever paid a missed toll online??
I love personal accountability!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I've always wanted to try it so I found a friend who was willing to take a little road trip with me and we are off! (Well I'm flying to Chicago and then driving, but for the sake of adventure, let's just call it a road trip).
Details and photos to come, provided I don't break my camera on the way down a mountain.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Turkey meatloaf (I use this recipe as a base, but add Worcestershire sauce, onions or whatever I have around and make it them in muffin tins so I have individual portions).
Mac & Cheese YUM!
Black Bean & Salsa Chicken from Ordering Disorder - Never made this before, so it's a bit of an experiment
Baked Artichoke Hearts from Rachel Ray - Also an experiment. I LOVE artichokes, so I'm hoping this is tasty.
Meal planning makes me hungry! I'm off to eat my leftover pizza from last night. I'm still on the hunt for the perfect crust, so if you have one you love, let me know!
Friday, January 09, 2009
I have a larger TV in my living room that is hooked up to cable/Tivo, but I also have a tiny TV in my bedroom that I've been using with just an antenna so I can fuzzily try to make out the morning news and weather. With cable going digital next month I had to make a decision, get rid of my bedroom luxury or get a box.
I marched myself to Best Buy tonight, bought a box and plugged it in. WHOA BABY is the picture on that thing clear. I may actually be able to tell which one is Matt and which one is Al now when I watch the Today show!
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Not sure it's worth all that stirring though. I may try it again with regular rice and see if that makes a difference.
On the menu for tomorrow: pasta with homemade sauce! 6 days into the new year and doing fabulously at my goal of cooking from scratch 80% of the time. I am actually looking forward to making next week's meal plan!
Monday, January 05, 2009
The day did get better. I got my fotoflot and my new business cards arrived, but my work inbox overfloweth and my hopes of not getting bogged down in the daily routine slipped farther and farther away today.
I suppose there is always tomorrow.
Friday, January 02, 2009
Orange-Scented Quinoa from Clean Eating Magazine
Risotto from Rachel Ray's 39 Minute Meals #2 cookbook
Chicken Marinade from Chris at Ordering Disorder
Pasta with homemade sauce from a Year of Crockpotting that is in the freezer (my secret ingredient - use burgundy wine marinated diced tomatoes instead of the italian ones)
I'm making extra chicken in the marinade to freeze and use later and will likely freeze any leftovers I don't eat for lunch.
Wish me luck!
First and foremost I wish to renew my commitment to cooking from scratch. I do pretty well now, making all my own bread, pasta sauces and desserts, but I fall short on dinners because of time. I'm going to try to meal plan better this year.
Also, this year I'm going to make more days special. I fall to easily into the mundane daily routine. Be it a glass of wine after work, eating on the good dishes or planning a trip, I'm going to make more days unique and meaningful.
What's everyone else going to be up to in 2009?