Tuesday, July 25, 2006

It's OVER!

Upon arriving home last night from the Mets/Cubs game (Cubs won 8-7!!! - great game), I discoveredthat my power had finally been restored!!!!! Hurrah! Hurrah! After SIX days of no electricity, no hot water and no sanity, the power is on, the water is flowing and I no longer have to go to the bathroom in the dark! FINALLY. Hurrah Hurrah!

Monday, July 24, 2006

Day 6

We are now nearing a week with no power. The ConEd truck was on the corner when I left for work this morning, so I'm holding out hope that when I get back from the Mets/Cubs game tonight I'll have it back. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it's hard. I threw everything out from my fridge and freezer this morning. I'm not sure how much more of this I can stand. It's really starting to wear on me. I only have to survive through this week and on Friday at 11:20pm I will be on a plane to LONDON!!! I think if I didn't have that to look forward to I would be going insane. This has to end soon right???

Days 4 & 5

Days 4&5 were spent upstate at my cousin's house. Ironically, after some really nasty storms on Saturday morning the power went out there for a couple of hours. At one point I couldn't believe I had just ridden a train two hours to go sit in the dark with other people. Luckily theirs came back on. I'm beginning to think mine never will.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Day 3

Still no power. Did I mention that my hot water is also electric, so I have no hot water as well. Last night when I got home it was hot, so I decided to sit outside for awhile. The drunk Irish guy who is aaround my age that lives on the floor above me came out awhile later and asked me to go to the bar across the street with him. Since it wasn't even dark yet and he was already clearly drunk and slurring his words (which by the way STILL sounds hot with an Irish accent), I politely declined. Sure enough, right at 4am when the bars closed I heard him LOUDLY singing as he walked up the stairs. At least he's a happy drunk....I should be so lucky....

I'm starting to feel like an urban episode of Little House on the Prarie.....

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Day 2

No power in my apartment. I had to go 40 blocks last night just to find somewhere that had food since I can't open my fridge. All businesses are closed, the banks, people are just sitting outside on the street since it's too hot inside.....no word at all when it will be restored, but this freaking SUCKS.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

To be Saved or Not to be Saved

Every morning at the top of the escalator at Grand Central Station there is a person handing out religious pamphlets. Every morning the person handing them out doesn't offer one to me. Now even if they did stick their hand out, I wouldn't take one, but I can't help but wonder why I am being skipped. The person changes, but every morning with no exception, I am overlooked. Is it because I look God fearing already? Do I look too far gone to even attempt salvation? I suppose I won't worry about it until the pamphlet handers starts wearing garlic around their necks and shouting Jezebel at me.

Monday, July 17, 2006

I've reclaimed my apartment!

The parents left this morning! Hurrah. It was a good trip, but I can only stand being around people for so long. The past THREE weekends have been filled with various overnight guests and I'm desperate to get my house back and have some alone time. Unfortunately (or fortunately) this upcoming weekend is my only free weekend because the next TWO weekends after that I will be in London!! I keep meaning to read some of my photography books before I leave so I can brush up on my skills, but I've been putting it off. Tonight will be spent reclaiming my apartment and paying some bills, but tomorrow the studying begins! I preemptively bought some frames at Target while I was there this weekend (while my dad was here with the car and could help me get them home), so I have to get at least 3 blow-up worthy photos out of the trip to fill them. Hopefully I didn't just curse myself by saying that.....

Yesterday was spent with my parents/grandmother dragging me all over the Upper East Side to every corner they lived/played/sneezed at in the years they lived there. I got some photos, but nothing I think is going to be usable. I may be able to do something with them in Photoshop, but I was having computer issues last night and couldn't really look at them. My dad was able to fix my computer so hopefully tonight I'll be able to play around. I'll post some tonight in my photo section if I get anything decent.

Friday, July 14, 2006

A laugh.....

About 6 months ago a video company claimed they sent us some materials we needed for a video, but despite having confirmation from FedEx that it was delivered, nobody remembered seeing it. We sent out a company email, but to no avail. Nobody had seen the mystery box.

Today a woman in our mailroom ran out of FedEx boxes, so she went to the storeroom to get a box of boxes. Upon opening the box of boxes, she discovered the missing video materials! The video company had sent them in the box that FedEx boxes come in. Upon their arrival nobody had noticed the address label on the side and had just thought they were the box of empty FedEx boxes and put them in storage! Hurrah! Mystery solved. Now guess who has to call the video company and apologize for accusing them of losing the materials LOL. Oh well, lets just hope they think it' s funny.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

I'm in a funk....

:-( and I don't know how to get out.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

It got so hot in my office tonight that the post-its hanging on the wall above my desk lost their adhesive quality and started showering down on me. That was the last straw for me, I packed up my stuff and left, passing 2 air conditioning repairmen in the hall on the way out. Judging by the various parts strew about the floor and the perplexed looks on their faces, the outlook for AC tomorrow is not good.

It's SO hot.....

No AC at work today and it is SO hot. I'm sweating, I'm sticking to my desk and it's darn near impossible to keep a beverage cold no matter how many ice cubes I stick in it. RARGH!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

I should know better than to look at craigslist ads for men seeking women. EVERY single one says they are seeking a skinny girl and skinny girl I am not. I suppose I've gotten used to it, but today I saw one that really got me.

I don't get it. Are women on CL hopelessly delusional? I was talking to a woman for a few days about getting together and today she told me that she is 5"6' and 170 lbs. I asked her if she played nosetackle for the Bears? Indeed, I would classify her as more cow than woman.

The punch line, of course, is that this woman doesn't think she's fat. Would you believe that? Well, you might think, "She isn't fat, she's obese!" And you'd be right. I mean, I like curves, but she has rolls and rolls and rolls.

I conjectured that any men that she had previously been with were chubby chasers and she said that they weren't. Well, if you're with a pig, then you're a pig chaser, whether or not you acknowledge it.

No wonder so many men fuck you and leave you...

What an ass...170 is considered an obese cow?? Apparently I'm nearing the livestock category and I didn't even know it. And what's a chubby chaser? Is that a guy who goes for bigger girls because he thinks they are desperate and won't say no?? Is this something I have to be concerned about now?? I don't know why this post got to me so much, but it's totally bringing me down. I can't help but think that every guy who has ever gone out with me ("gone out" being used liberally since I've never actually had a bf) just though I would be an easy prospect. Rargh. I try to be practical about it and think that everyone has their preferences, I don't like super skinny men, I don't like red hair....some men like skinny, some men like big chests, but the logic doesn't work and I end up just feeling like I don't measure up and never will, which means I'm resigned to a life of one date wonders like the one I had on Friday. A guy spends an hour or two having a drink with you and then you never hear from him again. It's like reverse Survivor. Just once I'd like a guy to actually dial my phone number twice in a row, but alas I'm the one hit wonder of dating.

Single men out there please explain! Where exactly is the Island of No Contact and what are all the men doing over there? Obviously (and thankfully) not procreating.

I survived!

I survived the visit from my parents. Technically they are still here, but for the next 5 days they are staying upstate with my cousin, so I have a few days to regain my apartment, actually sleep in my own bed (with the AC!), put everything back where its supposed to be and be up as late as I want. Oh the bliss of being able to sleep in my bed again.....

Their trip out was fun, we did some shopping, went to the beach, basically all the stuff I can't do because I don't have a car. I really should rent a car for a weekend every once in awhile, just to get out and drive and run some errands. It's not that expensive at all.

Had a date with a younger (22!) guy last Friday night.....he was very cute, interesting, but the age thing would take some getting used to I think. I did like hanging out with him, so if he calls I'll go out with him again. It's been 4 days though and I haven't heard from him at all though, so in all likelihood I'll probably never hear from him again. (cue "Another One Bites the Dust" by Queen). Oh well. Chicago boy and I have been talking again more anyway....I really do miss him. I wish things could be different, but instead I find myself in the same pattern I always get myself in. I fall for someone who doesn't like me back and then spend years of my life waiting and wishing, taking any bits of affection and attention the person is willing to bestow on me. A part of me thinks Chicago boy likes me, but is being distant because of the distance and a part of me thinks he just likes getting (albeit infrequent) affection when I'm in town. I wish I knew, but I'm too afraid of the answer to ask and I learned long ago not to ask questions I wasn't ready for the answer to. Rargh. I really am going to be alone forever.

I need coffee.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Some Thoughts on Photography

I've been feeling "off" lately and I didn't truly realize how much until I saw the photos I took from this weekend. The perspective even in the few I posted is off, and it's amazing to me how clearly my internal struggles are translating in my photos. I'm sure it's imperceptible to anyone but me, but when I look at them I can see it and more than that I can feel it.

A friend and I were talking today about how I never shoot photographs of people. I just can't capture people at all. I almost always end up cropping them out or avoiding them all together. The emotion or moment just never comes out the way it felt to me, so I almost never take photos of people. Another inherent characteristic of mine translating into my photography. People and humanity frighten me. I've never been one for sucessful relationships or emotion. I usually end up cropping people out of my life or avoiding them all together.

I truly do wonder if anyone but me can see what I see. That's the thing about all art I guess, you never know what people see in it. Even in a photograph.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

New Photos Up

New photos from my weekend with Beth walking around the city are up! See the KaiNYC Photos link over there ----->


Monday, July 03, 2006

I dropped my lens cap in the Central Park lake this weekend. You'd think they would float, but they don't.