Friday, July 09, 2010

My Life

I've been looking around my life lately and wondering how in the heck I got here?

A little over a year I was plagued with anxiety problems, in therapy, living alone in a no frills NYC apartment spending WAY too much time with my Tivo and working crazy hours.

Now I live with a boyfriend who I couldn't love more and am heading toward marriage in a lovely New Jersey house with all the amenities, own my own car and work regular hours and sometimes even get to leave EARLY.

I wish I had kept more faith back then that things would be different. It's a stark reminder to me that "It won't always be like this, so enjoy the good times and know the bad ones won't be forever".

What on EARTH will another year bring??? I'm afraid to ask.


Seeking Solace said...

Don't focus on what bad thing could happen. Think of what additional good things can happen as a result of all the good happening now.

I am so happy for you!!!

angela said...

crazy right? things like that always seem to happen so fast. for a good three years after my divorce, i was dating unsuccessfully, living on my own, okay but still lonely sometimes, wondering if i'd ever fall in love again.

then i met my current boyfriend and a few months later, i was deeply in love, getting ready to move in with him, and talking about having kids!

for several months, i did sort of sit on the edge of my seat, wondering if i was going to lose it all. it's only now, almost three years later, that i finally feel more secure.

i agree with Seeking Solace to not focus on what might happen, whether good or bad. easier said than done of course! i still struggle with it now. :)

Cheeky said...

Amazing isn't it? I am so happy for you!

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

Whoa whoa whoa.. Did I miss an engagement announcement?!?

Glad your life is so wonderful! It CAN continue, you know!

Kai said...

Tracey -No engagement yet...but there has been MUCH discussion about it. Basically we want to wait until my sister's wedding is over in October before we make any official plans!

Belive me you guys will be the FIRST to know!

Wendy said...

Holy cow where the heck have I been! How thrilling. So happy for the adventure life is taking you on right now. We definitely need a tweet up soon!