In conversation the other day Eharmony boy referred to me as his girlfriend.
I very nearly passed out. In my life that's not a word that gets used. I've never had anyone use that word to describe me and it threw me for a loop. It's not a word I'm very comfortable with and even though I know he meant it more in the "girl I'm currently seeing" way and that he is no way pressuring me, it weirded me out to hear myself described that way. We've talked about where we are at, and he knows I'm a total commitment phobe and he has never asked anything more of me than I was comfortable with, but hearing that term just.....really threw me off.
Eharmony boy is a dream boyfriend...he says all the right things, does the right things, he's courteous and in general just a good man. I just don't know how I feel about him.....something just seems to be missing, but I can't pinpoint it. Is it chemistry that's missing or is it that he's so easy to be with that the drama and anxiety are missing and that's why it feels odd? I suppose this is why you date and as long as everyone is on the same page, which we are, it's ok to have these feelings, but I have to say the terminology (though I do admit has been something I have longed to hear at least once in my life) is FREAKING ME OUT!