Tuesday, May 06, 2008

The Worst Feeling

Yesterday I had to do some research for work that meant going into my rarely-accessed file cabinets that are in a remote corner of my office, separated by the desks by a 1/2 wall. I was sitting on the floor reading my files and I guess my coworkers I share a space with hadn't noticed me go back there and the they started talking about me and saying terrible things. Once I realized what was happening, I stood up and just closed the drawers and carried on with my work. I have an odd relationship with my coworkers, sometimes we are super friendly and hanging out outside of work and other times it's very strained. Now, though, after hearing people talk about you in a certain way it's hard to go back to being friendly and it's taking everything I have to even be professional.

Practically I know that everyone talks about everyone and I'm sure I've done the same, but it doesn't change the fact that it sucks to hear people talk about you and the whole thing has me majorly bummed out.

Sigh.

6 comments:

Anna May Won't said...

oh no, that's the worst! recently someone implied to me that someone else had been talking about me behind my back (re: my comings and goings), and even THAT felt crummy. actually hearing it really really sucks. :(

Jenn said...

Ouch. That stinks...I'm sorry you had to hear it.

Cheeky said...

That stinks!

So how did they react when they realized you were there?

PinksandBluesGirls said...

Oh Kai... I am so sorry you had to witness that. That is just awful for you. I'm thinking of you... keep your head up!! xoxo,
Audrey

Kai said...

Neither of my coworkers really said anything, the one who said the nasty things just walked away and went to the bathroom.

Things at work are better...but it's an odd work environment since it's so casual, if I'm not friendly and just keep everything professional I get accused of being rude....

I think it's time to dust off the resume....again.

Caryn said...

OMG K - can you talk to HR about it? That is soooo horrible - so bad when it happens...

many, many hugs and don't let them get you down - you're intelligent and appreciate the finer things in life. What do they know?